Sunday, May 9, 2010

Blue Day

Today was a very depressing day for me. It was my very first mothers day and no one acknowledged it. No one called, Bear didn't get me a card, I didn't even receive a "happy mothers day" from anyone. It was so depressing, I cried. I have been waiting for years to be able to call myself a mom and now that I am, I am feeling so alone. If it weren't for baby bear then I don't know where I would be.

My husband accused me of pulling away the other day and I guess that made me realize that maybe I am shrinking into myself. When I look into the mirror I do not see the same charismatic women that I once was. I see a hollow shell.

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